Just Another Actor
All of us, to varying degrees, live with a certain degree of self-centredness. We build our own worlds around ourselves, forming perceptions of things around us to suit our liking. Those who do not, live a world of gloom and helplessness.
It's undeniable we live lives of choice. We love to believe what we want to believe, we choose to see what we want to see, and we only hear what we want to. Really, it is no crime to be self-appraising and self-glorifying -- unless there is a higher purpose of life, of which no one has an idea of.
Many a time I scoffed at another person's self-centeredness, only to find I was actually even more.
Truly, one's life is shaped by how they react to it. A class of say, hundred students may be preparing for the same test, for example, but each and every one will place themselves on a different level of comfort. Some stress out over it -- some pretend to; some sail through it -- and of course, some pretend to.
At the end of it all, every single one of the hundred goes through the same process, but not the same experience. Truly, life is what you make of it. But though life's been kind to me lately, I must remember to keep my humility. I am not invincible, but in fact most fallible. As I work on my strengths, I must remember my weaknesses.
During quiet times of thinking, I realize I'm only a small pawn in the field of earth, fighting an unknown battle with unknown opponents, for an unknown goal -- except to soldier on.
At these times, it's no wonder one feels so lost and lonely.
Who can I rely on for strength? Are you just another actor?
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4 comments:
I think it is not the nature of people to become self centered. At least I don't think that poeple are born that way. As people grow, I believe they are swayed by worldly things, concerns, worries that eventually led to them building a kind of layers onto themselves. And this is the main reason how people can be self-centered. The best person to rely on is oneself, perhaps family and closest friends, but certainly not anyone on the streets.
Yet I think, essentially everyone is the same. Whether you are here, or halfway around the world, your fears, worries, wants and needs as a human being are the same as mine. As such, I very much believe in peeling off my own layer, and see others in their essence, not how they portray themselves to be. (I find it is pretty hard to do and takes much time and patience, yet I know it is worth doing).
And so, if you think you are a pawn, remember everyone is essentially a pawn too. If they are perceived in their essence then they may not be so foreign anymore. And the goals don't differ much, and it is not so lonely anymore.
kopi - I fully agree that we all have our layers. But then, don't you think in most circumstances it's easier to accept someone's "portrayed" persona rather than their "stripped" essence?
There's hardly enough time to peel off everyone's layers. And I doubt most layers are worth peeling. We might not like what we find inside...
What say you?
wah so philosophic. why not be an actor. look at tom cruise. rich, good looking, got a friggin' young n hot girl. not that bad after all.
and i prefer peeling bananas.
wan yean - Ah, but unemployed!
Tom Cruise has been dumped by Paramount Studios, just three days ago. (Article)
Guess he'll depend on Katie to bring the bacon for now. What's so cool about that?
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