A Lighter Darkness

Have I blogged about this before? I must have, but I don't recall when. Again tonight when it's cold as the mind is half-contemplative, half-high and another half bliss, you feel a certain sort of contentedness, of wanting to look back into the past and chuckle about it.

I look at the moon to find her staring back at me, in her entirety tonight. It's the 15th day of the lunar calendar. And I feel a certain peace, a certain sort of isolation in this world that reveals all other things empty. What price fame? What price material gains? What price rushing?

I've stopped rushing some time ago. Learnt to take things more slowly, especially these few weeks. Perhaps I've not outgrown the Lunar New Year mood. Perhaps I've just gotten more acquainted with the "real" world rather than the fantasies I draw around myself as a songwriter. Or perhaps I've just learnt to take things more slowly... Ya, perhaps I've just gotten used to them.

A recent realization is that I've grown so much that words might not be sufficient to document my life journey -- no, not even the most emotional post nor the most honest songs I've posted in this blog and the ones I used before, would be sufficient.


I look at the moon again, and realize my stupidity. In the minutes I spent thinking over these thoughts, juggling all these elements in my head, she did the exact opposite.

She just stayed still... And watched...

A simple act, but which we often forget.
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Photo: Floating Mosque, Tanjung Bungah, Penang.