Clear Rawness

I realize that three months from now I will no longer feel as raw the emotions I feel this instant.

I am aware that within the minute time of one week, I am able to feel accomplishment (to present a technical paper to learned engineers), embarrassment (inserting the wafers the wrong way into the box), excitement (suggesting a possible solution to a pressing product issue; getting my colleague excited about it), boredom (feeling I've read every single article on the subject matter -- to be found wrong the next minute), anxiety (measuring wafers for the first time -- alone) and awe (hearing learned engineers explain their expertise); these emotions come like tidal waves -- unpredictable in time, depth and impact.

This is the time when a worker is no longer raw, but neither is he with much wisdom yet -- that comes with experience. This is the time when mental stress follows a sinusoidal wave; fluctuating up and down in a predictable manner. Soon enough though, the worker will learn to rise above the waves -- and ride them.

Three months ago I started this journey.

Three months from now I'll come back to this post and no longer understand the emotions behind it.

Three years from now, I'll no longer remember.