Return to Pondering

It was when choices were limited that the decision was simple -- to accept, or not. It is, as it is now, that when the choices become almost boundless that one begins to search deep within... and the deafening silence as the important questions are asked is shocking... The realization that "I don't know what I really want"!

This post is a continuation, an elaboration of the previous posting. I'm writing this to aid my thought process. I've known for a long time that I have a flair and interest in research and academia, but the frustration of not really knowing what is it that I would gladly spend time doing research in, is not encouraging.

What I am sure now is the type of environment that I yearn for, due to the experience I have had now thus far, but that's about it. Am I asking for too much perhaps? Am I looking for inspiration in the wrong manner, perhaps?

All I know is that these things will fall into place with time, but I have a hurried, passionate rushed nature -- always pushing myself, and that is the way I work and excel. Perhaps, I will sleep on it and return to pondering tomorrow. Good night, world.