Before Friday

Right now, I'm feeling this familiar strangling sensation around my chest and neck area. This sensation I now recognize could be stress, nervousness or anxiety. My very brief holidays will end pretty soon! (A month has passed already!) This Friday, will my new semester start. This coming Friday, in two days' time, will I get the full results of my previous examination, and at the same time, decide what courses to take for this new semester, and subsequently register for them.

I'm feeling nervous anxiety in anticipation of my results. I've been checking almost every day, the various websites which supposedly might reveal my results. I don't want to know only on Friday! I want to plan! I want to rejoice! I want to reconsider! No, in short, I would want time to digest and savour the fruits of my labour before the start of the new semester. But now, even with two days left, the results are still evasive.

All I know is that I passed all subjects -- but pass, how? And I also know that my average CGPA for my compulsory papers is commendable. But what about the other subjects? How exactly did I fare? Why does it take so long to mark and release the full grades?

It says here that I passed Islamic Civilizations, twice! I must be so good that the lecturer gave me double credit, lol. (Feel free to ask me about Islam Hadhari. Be prepared for a long rant.)

I don't like the thought that by the end of the week, all my schedule-less, free-spirited days will again be replaced by academic routine. Once again, I will immerse myself in the world of science. With every semester comes new challenges, new experiences, new hopes.

Perhaps I should rid myself of this strangling feeling, and ready myself for the future. If only it were that simple, really. If only I could just know my full results before Friday...