Somewhere Soon
Somewhere along the line, I lost my youthful energy due to too many things occupying my mind, and now as I find one by one of them checked, that my previous foundation had been eroded, withered away due to lack of care.
Somewhere along the time I spent between today and who knows when, I've been trying to write a song but find myself challenging myself to break this mold so much that I become at odds with myself. Where every single idea is killed away before it grows, just because I have failed to draw the line between fitting in and being original.
Somewhere along this journey, I knew I was in a better shape and better state once, where I had the clarity of mind to just achieve whatever I put my mind to, whatever my heart desired. And though I never quite succeeded as often as I wanted, the matter was a different story altogether as the satisfaction was in trying.
But somewhere along this confusion, my soul surrendered to the pressure of confirmity. Of being accepted, and finding that I enjoyed being accepted.
Somewhere along this life, I got caught up with the world and forgot my own individuality. I'm on a quest to regain that -- my childish innocence. My youthful spark of curiousness and vitality. These are what made me, me.
Somewhere within this mind, I know I can do it.
Time is Right
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6 comments:
u can do it! ^_^
I was quite surprised when you said awhile back that you'd rather be accepted than go against the norm and not be yourself. Or something like that. Glad you don't feel the same anymore. (or maybe you still do?) Maybe it's just my childish rebelliousness, I don't see why I have to go against my own beliefs so I can be accepted. At the mean time, I'm going with their way because I don't have the capabilities to go against it. Not yet. Maybe I'm being accepted but I don't feel it. And it doesn't matter. Because I have not accepted myself.
It's simple, really. Us humans. Everyone start out vowing to remain themselves, but along the way the promise would be broken, chucked aside or lost.
But why?
Because conforming, changing colours like chameleons, is so much easier.
And people like it when it's easy.
You blend in the crowd, everyone's head will nod at your words... there're a sort of strength you get from that. I must admit, I too wore uniforms of other people just because I get so tired sometimes.
I hope you'll regain what is you. It sure as hell won't be an easy task to maintain, but at the end of the day, it'll be worth it.
beve - Thanks! I know I can, and I will! :)
~shiawase~ - Don't remember saying that... how uncharacteristic of me. But I'm pretty sure time will change your rebelliousness into love ;)
gianne - How true! There are enough people who blend in already. We don't need to be another statistic.
Whoa love. Don't make me puke. Hahahah
~shiawase~ - Love makes you puke? Erm... you must be studying too much already :P
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